Free Backstage Dirty (The Savage Light Rockers #1) by Jenika Snow Page A

better, but he had hoped it would be the start to patching things up between them, and then, he hoped, moving onto something more. He wanted her, had wanted her for a long time. Jacks could forget about the past five years and just start over with her here. Yes, his lifestyle was vastly different than it had been, but that didn’t mean they couldn’t try. “Really look at me.” Obviously he didn’t mean in the literal sense, but she looked up and down his body, and it took a lot for him not to push everything else aside and show her with his cock, hands, and mouth that they needed to be together.
    “You should put some clothes on. It’s distracting having you stand there naked.” For a second they just stared at each other, and then a smile spread across her face. “Yeah, you really should, because I can’t think, let alone try and answer your question.”
    Okay, this was good, because at least she was smiling and joking with him, and his being naked was obviously affecting her. He grabbed his jeans, which were on the floor, and once they were on he looked back at her. Of course he wanted to ask her again where she saw this going, and in fact wanted to tell her where he saw them after this, but she was edgy, for whatever reason, and so he knew when to back off.
    “It isn’t that I don’t want to be with you.” She looked down, must have realized she only had her bra on, and grabbed her shirt off the floor. Once it was on and they were staring at each other she continued speaking. “It’s just that the way I left…” She shook her head, but at least kept her eyes on him. “I feel really shitty about it, and then we jumped right into bed, well, the wall and floor, too.” She chuckled, and Jacks couldn’t help himself from doing the same. “I just don’t want either of us to get hurt, Jacks.”
    He couldn’t help himself. He walked up to her and wrapped his arms around her. Fortunately, she rested her head on his chest, and right now wasn’t about the explosive sexual chemistry they had. Right now was about a friendship that spanned their entire lives, and that had never been broken. “So what if I’m a musician now? Who gives a fuck if our lives are not the same?” She didn’t say anything, but he kept talking anyway. “We are still the same where it counts.” He leaned down, closed his eyes, and inhaled the floral scent of her hair. But it wasn’t just the aroma of flowers now, but smelled like him and the sex they had just had, too. Jacks loved it, and the fact this territorial and proprietary side filled him made him kind of feel like a caveman. “You want me, Tanner?” he said softly.
    “You know I do ,” she said just as softly as he had.
    The fact she answered right away pleased him. Yeah, maybe he should still be pissed and hurt at the way she had just taken off, but fuck, he loved this girl. So she had been scared . He had been terrified, too. He meant it when he said he wanted to move forward. A crazy idea slammed into his head, and he was seconds away from just saying what was on his mind. He clenched his jaw and pulled her back so she was an arm’s length away from him. “Good, because I want you even more than I wanted you five years ago.” He smiled, and when she reciprocated the act his heart fucking did something strange in his chest. If the other Savage Light members—childhood friends or not—and the roadies and other crew of the band saw how totally head over heels he was concerning Tanner, they’d give him a lot of shit. But he didn’t care, and would get pleasure in kicking each one of their asses for giving him a hard time. When it came to Tanner, he’d do anything to make sure she stayed by his side and that she was happy. And yeah, it had only taken this one moment for him to forget about everything else that didn’t have to do with having her in his arms.
    “You’re still smiling ,” she said through her own smile.
    “ Because I’m happy.”
    That had her