step through the door of Robâs house, but thereâs a pause in the energy of the room. It makes me feel like Jane Goodall, observing the rituals of the small town straight. And believe me, the gorilla comparison, though definitely a bit of reverse stereotyping, is entirely too apt. The gorilla groups stop their conversations to do the quick scan and approval, or dismissal, of the new arrivals. In this case, us. And fortunately, by how quickly everyone goes back to what they were doing, weâre approved.
I am out of my element.
Completely. So I mimic an earlier moment.
âHey, yâall come here.â I gather the girls around me,and to their delight, snap a five-face selfie. As they walk in ahead of me, I text it to Dana. The need for a touchstone is great.
She texts back immediately.
Holy fucking mother of God. Which one are you? And who you going to do?
I. Am. Walking. Into. A. Football. Players. Party.
No.
Yes.
I am walking into Hellcat Coffee.
Dana is definitely winning. Hellcat Coffee is this amazing little place on South Moreland thatâs enough on the fringe to feel dangerous. Itâs also where all my friends from the last couple of years hang out on the weekends when thereâs no rave to dance our brains off at. If I were there, Iâd be curled on a tattered couch listening to spoken-word poetry. Not waxed and polished like some freak show at the prom.
âYou okay?â Mary Carlson sidles next to me and I shove the phone into my pocket before she can look at it. Iâd done the great social media app purge for when Gemma eventually demanded my phone. But texts could be a problem.
âOooh, you have a secret love? Not looking for a boyfriend because you have one already?â She nudges me withher shoulder and because sheâs probably five foot nine to my five foot three, sheâs got to crouch a little to do it. Then she laughs.
âWhatâs so funny?â
âYour face when I asked you that. It was like Iâd given you a lemon.â
I smile and shrug. âSorry. I was texting my dad and your question threw me off guard.â Her question is actually what I hate most in life. Why canât people say boyfriend or girlfriend, or him or her, when they ask about relationships? Why canât they drop the gender specification altogether?
âCome on.â Gemma motions for us. Betsy and Jessica have already wandered off to their respective guys, so itâs down to the three of us. We exit through French doors out onto a manicured brick back patio. The keg planted in the center of the mossed bricks looks completely out of place in this Better Homes and Gardens layout. My phone buzzes but I canât pull it out without starting a thing. And I donât need Dana to be a thing right now. Hopefully sheâll forgive me.
âHi.â George is there with his hands in his pockets.
âOh, hi.â Mary Carlson gives George the Bailey smile. Funny how B.T.B.âs makes my day breezier, but Mary Carlsonâs makes me feel like I canât breathe. Especially when sheâs elbowing me in the sides in a completely unsubtleway to point out the boy she wants me to hook up with.
âYâall want a beer?â Gemma eyes the keg suspiciously.
I shake my head. So do George and Mary Carlson. Awkward and sober. Just the way I like it.
âWell, since youâre driving, Iâm imbibing.â Gemma turns on the charm for the guy at the tap, and now weâre two, plus George.
âDo you think thereâs bottled water anywhere, or Coke we can pour in a red Solo cup?â George fidgets. I grab three cups from the table by the keg. âCome on, letâs go see whatâs in the kitchen.â
We turn in unison and smack straight into Chaz. He wolf grins when he sees Mary Carlson. âThere you are. Did you come to the game? See my big play?â
The roar from the bleachers while we were getting drinks from