Free In the Age of Love and Chocolate by Gabrielle Zevin

no one in this whole lousy dystopia I love more than you. But I’m scared, Natty. I’m scared I’m messing everything up. I don’t know the right things to do for you right now. I barely know the right things to do for myself most of the time. I wish Daddy were alive. Or Mom or Nana. Because I’m only eighteen and I have no idea what to say, what you need. What I know is I wish someone had gotten me out of New York City when I was having such a rough time at Holy Trinity. I wish someone had gotten me away from Mr. Beery and people like him, and our relatives, too.”
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    She fought me on the cab ride to Penn Station and at the ticket counter (to the amusement of a youth athletic team—I saw the bag of balls, but could not identify the sport), and now she was still fighting me in the waiting area under the departures sign. A panhandler nudged my sister and said, “Give her a break.” Her was me, by the way, and even the homeless thought I needed defending from the fourteen-year-old haranguer.
    “I’m not going,” Natty said. “No matter what you say, I’m not getting on that train.” She had her arms crossed and her lower lip jutted out. She looked exactly like what she was—a teenager who hated the world and everyone in it. For my part, I suspected that I looked and sounded like a kid pretending to be an adult for a school play.
    “You’re going,” I said. “You agreed back at the apartment that you would. Why are you changing your mind now?”
    The loudspeaker announced that Natty’s train to Boston was boarding. She was crying and sniffling, so I offered her my handkerchief. She blew her nose and then she stood up straight.
    “How would you make me get on the train?” she asked in a calm voice. “You can’t physically force me. I’m taller than you and I’m probably stronger than you, too.”
    The jig was up. The lion had realized the impotence of the zookeeper. “I can’t, Natty. All I can tell you is I love you, and I think this is for the best.”
    “Well, I think you’re wrong,” she said. We stared at each other. I didn’t blink and neither did she. A second later, she turned on her heel and stalked off toward the stairway that led to the train.
    “Goodbye, Natty!” I called after her. “I love you! Call me if you need anything.”
    She did not reply or even turn her head.
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    A week later, she called me, sobbing. “Please, Anya. Please let me come home.”
    “What’s wrong?”
    “I can’t do anything here. There are tons of rules and even more because I’m new. If you let me come home, I’ll be good, I swear. I know I was wrong before. I shouldn’t have stayed out with Pierce. I shouldn’t have been disrespectful to you or Mr. Beery.”
    I steeled myself. “Give it a couple of weeks.”
    “I can’t, Anya! I’ll die. I will seriously die.”
    “Are they doing anything bad to you? Because if they are, you need to tell me what it is.”
    She didn’t answer.
    “Is this about Pierce?” I asked. “Do you miss him?”
    “No! That’s … you don’t know everything. You don’t know anything!”
    “Give it until Thanksgiving. You can come home for Thanksgiving and then you’ll see Leo.”
    She hung up on me.
    I wished I could see her. I wished the school wasn’t so far away or that I hadn’t been so busy with the club. If only I knew someone in Boston, I thought.
    I did, of course, though I didn’t want to have to talk to him . I didn’t want to have to ask him for anything either.
    In point of fact, I didn’t even have his cell phone number.
    I got my slate from the drawer. Only people in school used slates, but unlike me, Win was still in school. Although we had never slate-messaged much (no one my age did; SM-ing was something your grandparents or even your great-grandparents did), at that moment, the ancient technology appealed to me. It seemed more respectful, and easier than having to actually speak.
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