enunciated; or else she was Mrs. Jardine.
âBecause thatâs when she turned up.â Maisie looked deeply, darkly, into my face, as if to interpret there the sinister meaning of that visit. âYes. Thatâs another thing I sort of remember and donât remember. She came to the hotel. â¦â She paused, struggling with the blank, stiff shutter of memory. âI know she did. Somebody in white, with a white parasol, sitting on the sofa, and we came inâand she turned round and looked at usâand Mother told us in a sharp sort of voice to go up to our room at once. ⦠Thatâs all I can think of. But itâs funny: the first moment I saw her here, I thought: Sheâs exactly like I thought sheâd be.â She sighed and lay back again. âThen we left London and went to Paris. I remember easily the lift man there. Then a man with a dark sort of face, called Marcel, began to come. Iâve often wondered if she went to live with him when she went away. He called her mignonne or ch érie, things like that, and he was always teasing her. I hated him because when he first saw Malcolm and me he said something that meantââ She stopped a moment. âWe were ugly.â
âWhat did he say?â
âI couldnât understand, but I know he meant we werenât like her to look at. He laughed; and she gave a kind of laugh too. Itâs true, of course, weâre notânot a bit. Cherry is more.â
âWhat sort of face did she have?â
âWait here,â said Maisie. âDonât move till I come back.â
She swung down from the tree, ran full gallop across the lawn and disappeared into the house. In no time she was back, and, resuming her place beside me, took something from her pocket, told me to stretch my hand out, and placed it in my palm.
âOn your life, donât drop it,â she said fiercely.
It was an oval miniature, set in brilliants, backed with sapphire blue velvet.
âThatâs my mother.â
Long curving neck. Bare shoulders, bosom swathed in blue chiffon. Dark hair elaborately piled and puffed out in lateral wings. Eyes painted a melting violet, skin snow-white with faintest wild-rose cheeks. She smiled mysteriously. She was Mrs. Darling. She was a French New Year card angel-face, set in tinsel and blossoms. She was every childâs dream of a romantic mother.
âI found it the other day in the drawer of the cabinet, in the drawing-room,â said Maisie. âWhat do you think of it?â
Her voice was casual, edged with a quiver of triumph.
âLovely,â I breathed. âWas she really like that?â
âExactly like that,â declared Maisie. âAt least, in evening dress. She wore evening dress a lot. She was the most beautiful person I ever saw.â She took the portrait from me, and curled her hand hungrily round the frame. âWish I dared pinch it. I wonder if sheâd miss it.â
âAsk her if you can have it.â
âNever. Iâll never ask her for anything.â She glared.
âTruly and honestly,â I said, âwonât you ever stop hating her?â
What I had in mind was the awkwardness of my own position. Though by now I was prepared to think Mrs. Jardine mightâmust, somehowâbe wicked, I was powerless to resist her magnetic influence. So soon as I was in her presence my whole being churned with passion for her. And now I had been elected best friend, and must receive suggestions detrimental to Mrs. Jardine. If only Maisie could have been indifferent to or bored by her grandmother I could have preserved my loyalty intact; but Mrs. Jardine obsessed her; she felt the pull as strongly as I did. Any day, any moment she might abandon the harsh, gruelling strain in the opposite direction, and collapse, and flow all yielding into her orbit; but she never would. Any hour, hate might tip over and become love; she would never