Sheâll make pure mush out of the man she marries.â
Of course, I was happy Momma came to me for help with Cathy, but I noticed something I hadnât noticed until now during the days that followed. Momma seemed to have less tolerance for Cathy. She was criticizing her more and more at the dinner table and afterward. Cathyâs sulking over the twins that were coming was no longer cute or understandable.
âYour sister is just selfish,â Momma muttered to me one day. âYou should know that itâs not easy for a woman when sheâs pregnant. Look at my figure. Look at how difficult itâs getting for me to move around. I feel . . . like a truck. I donât know why I even bother with my makeup or my hair. Your father says Iâm as beautiful as ever, but I know heâs just trying to please me. Youâre the only one who knows the truth and is not afraid to say it, Christopher. You will be a wonderful doctor, because you will always say whatâs true and not what someone wants to hear. Go on. Tell me.â
I shrugged. She was right. I didnât like telling lies or distorting facts. What was true was true, and pretending it wasnât wouldnât change it. People who lived like that were weak and foolish. Putting off reality just made it more difficult to faceit. I know this attitude doesnât go over well with my classmates, but thereâs none whose opinion really matters that much to me.
âYou canât look the way you looked before you were pregnant, Momma. Of course, you donât have the same figure, but your complexion is rosy. You look healthier than ever,â I told her. âItâs characteristic of pregnant women who take care of themselves, take their prenatal vitamins, and do whatever their doctors tell them to do. Women were made to be pregnant.â
She looked at me and half-smiled. âI hope you wonât always couch your compliments in some medical observation. Any girlfriend you have wonât think thatâs very romantic, Christopher, but thank you anyway,â she said. Then she thought about it for a moment and shook her head. âI think Iâd rather hear your father tell me Iâm no different. Little lies are okay if they make you happier.â She walked away, smiling.
I went to see Cathy, who was pouting as usual. She was being destructive, too. She had practically torn apart one of the dolls Momma had bought for her and ripped most of the clothing. The gifts Daddy had been buying her to make her happy were piled up in a corner as if they had been discarded.
I sat across from her and stared at her.
âWhat?â she asked. She could never stand my staring at her with a sour expression on my face.
âYou donât want anyone to treat you like a baby, but you go and act like one.â
âI donât care. Momma is mean to me, meaner than ever. Maybe those twins are making her meaner. I wish theyâd fall out and go away.â
âAll right,â I said, sighing and sitting on her bed. âLet me try to explain things. When a woman first gets pregnant, a married woman, sheâs usually very happy about it.â
âSo?â
âAs time goes by and the baby grows and she gains weight, she gets depressed. You remember what that means.â
âSo?â
âShe needs to be comforted and loved even more than before she became pregnant, Cathy. Someday youâll be in the same condition.â
Her eyes widened. âIâm not going to get pregnant. I donât want to care for a real baby and change diapers full of poop and wipe drool.â
I laughed. âSure you will, butââI narrowed my eyesââif you really love Momma, you will stop making her feel even worse. Youâll do more to help her. Daddy is upset with you, too,â I added, because I knew that would have more effect.
âHe is not.â
âYou know he tells me