Free Silver Bay Song by M J Rutter

inside.
    We were shown to a table and to prove that in my mind we weren’t on a date, I sat beside him instead of opposite him. It amused him somewhat and I suppose it showed him that I wasn’t looking for anything more from him. Even though I was, even though his aftershave made my mouth water and I felt like I was quivering inside. Kaden had made it perfectly clear that there would be nothing between us and I had to stop getting my hopes up.
    We shared a lobster, I could eat one to myself, but he probably would have thought I was greedy enough by the way I picked that thing clean of meat. Then sucked the juice out of the lemon and smiled. He watched me now and then, not constantly, but I caught him staring a few times and he looked bemused. 
    “It’s nice to take a girl out and watch her eat,” he remarked after wiping his napkin over his mouth.
    “Isn’t that the idea, when you go for a meal, to actually eat something?”
    “I took a girl out once and she ate ice cubes, nothing else. What would make a girl want to eat nothing but ice?” he sighed.
    “Wow, that is so sad.” I said and wiped my mouth with a napkin. “I like food, I don’t eat enough some days, but I do enjoy it when I do and I drink lots of water.”   
    “So, tell me something bad about yourself,” he smirked lifting his drink to his lips.
    “Um, I can’t sing, not one note, I don’t even join in with my students, seriously, I suck.”
    “That’s not a bad thing.”
    “You haven’t heard me sing,” I smiled.
    “Still, not enough to put me off,” he shrugged.
    “Okay, um… I lick the cream out of Oreo’s at work and then I put them back into the packet. I keep a stash in the teacher’s room cabinet. I caught Keith taking one once, his face when he bit into it was priceless.” I grinned proudly. 
    He shook his head smiling, “That’s not bad or disgusting, it’s actually ingenious.”
    “I don’t know then, I suppose I am just a good girl,” I replied and set my napkin on the table beside my plate. “Hold on a sec, I am possessive, I hate liars and I suffer with the world’s worst PMS in the history of women, seriously, even I avoid me when I get like that.”
    “Still not convinced,” he sighed lifting his drink again.
    “I cheated on my boyfriend in college with two of his friends,” I admitted. “Tanner Loxley and Lewis Jones, Tanner was insanely hot and Lewis not so, sorta cute I guess, anyway, I was dating their roomie Cain and he was, well for want of a better word, boring. He left town to go home for something, I think it was his grandmother’s funeral. Tanner took me out on the Thursday night and we went back to his room. Lewis, we went out on Friday and well, he was sort of a dork and I guess I wanted to know if the rumours were true.”
    “What rumours?” he frowned, I could see he was enjoying this.
    “That their huge brains are the same as their huge, um, well, yes actually, I discovered it is true and that he was actually the best guy I had ever slept with up until I met Jay.”
    “What did Cain do when he found out?” he asked keenly.
    “He never did, not from me anyway. I broke up with him the day we graduated and the last I heard, he was teaching in Italy or something.”
    “You naughty girl,” he grinned. I felt my cheeks warm. “That is not telling me to leave you alone, it’s making me want to know more.”
    “Sorry, I am trying very hard to gross you out.” I shrugged.
    “Do you have any bad habits, other than the Oreo thing?”
    “I crack my fingers when I am thinking, I can’t help it, I never shave my legs during the winter, I eat ice cream out of the tub, drink milk straight from the carton and I am terrible at cleaning out leftovers from my fridge, sometimes I actually grow things in there, it gets so bad.”
    “Um, ouch, furry can be nice, I can relate, always tastes better right from the carton, but not cleaning your fridge, that’s just disgusting and extremely