Free Sad Love by Mj Fields

toilet.
    She looked down.
    “No, no no,” she said over and over.
    He grabbed clothes from her dresser and ran in the bathroom. They didn’t even have pad’s there.
    “Tessa,” he watched as tears fell down her cheek and she shook her head no. “Look at me.”
    She didn’t. He took her underwear off and put the new ones on. He handed her a wash cloth.
    “Tessa I am going to see if Jade has any pads.”
    “No , don’t you leave me,” she cried and hugged him.
    “Okay Tessa,” he said and pulled her up and threw clothes on her, “We need to go , baby.”
    He picked her up and walked down the stairs. Jade was in the kitchen.
    “What’s going on?” she asked, “Tessa what’s wrong?”
    “I’m pregnant,” she said and cried. “I have a baby in my belly. I’m pregnant. Lucas!”
    Tessa buried her head in Lucas’s neck.
    “Jade do you have any pads?” he asked.
    “Yes, but...” she started.
    “GET ONE!” he yelled.
    Jade saw the pain in his eyes, and she ran and came back down. He was in the bathroom with her Jade handed it through the crack in the door. He set her down and started to pull down her pants.
    “I’ve got it,” Tessa snapped.
    He stepped back and looked at her she pulled her pants back up and looked at him.
    “I’m so sorry Lucas,” she said, “I didn’t mean to...”
    He kissed her, “Let’s go baby, Jade we will be back later, no one knows about this okay?”
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    They waited in the room for the doctor to come back. She had been taken down for an ultra sound, Lucas didn’t leave her side.
    “The results showed exactly what I thought, you have miscarried, I’m so sorry,” the ER doctor said softly.
    “There isn’t anything you can do?” Lucas asked looking at him as if it was his fault.
    “No , Mr. Links I’m sorry.”
    Tessa softly cried, and Lucas hugged her, “Was it because we had sex? I mean does too much cause this to happen?”
    “No , not at all and the ultra sound showed that it was a tubal pregnancy, which means that this pregnancy would not have been viable,” He said. “We’re going to send you home with some pain medication for the cramping. You will bleed for a few days a week at most. You need to call your OBGYN later and make a follow up appointment. They will check to see that everything has passed if it hasn’t you’ll need to have a procedure called a DNC to take care of the rest. I’m very sorry.”
    When he left the room , Lucas looked at Tessa who was now sitting with her knees to her chest rocking back and forth with her head buried. He grabbed her shirt and gently put it over her head.  He looked at her eyes that were red and still shedding tears. He pulled the robe off of her arms and she put her arms in the shirt, still looking down.
    “Tessa, please look at me,” he whispered.
    She wrapped her arms around him, and they both cried. “I love you.”
    “I ’m so sorry,” she cried, “Lucas I am so, so, sorry.”
    He pulled back and looked at her.
    “You didn’t do this Tessa, God baby, don’t you pull away from me,” he held her tighter.
    The nurse walked in and gave her discharge papers and instructions. Tessa didn’t even look at her. Lucas asked questions and took the paperwork. She gave her pain medication, and they left.
    They walked in the house, and Jade and Ryan looked at them. Tessa looked at the floor, and Lucas explained what had happened. Jade hugged Tessa and asked her what she could do.
    “Nothing Jade, I ’ll get through this,” she looked at Lucas nervously, “Right? We’ll get through this, won’t we?”
    “Of course Tessa , this…Tessa remember this,” he kissed her ring.
    "I made breakfast it just has to go in the oven for fo rty five minutes," Tessa walked towards the kitchen.
    She stopped when she heard baby Luke cry. She touched her belly and took a deep breath.
    “I ’m sorry Tessa,” Jade went to get him.
    “No,” Tessa said, “Don’t you be sorry. Jade, please don’t you be