and Noah come after Ruth and me before the police have a chance to arrest them?
It was such a real possibility that Miriam shivered. She rubbed her hands up and down her arms, trying to smooth away the goose bumps.
A car drove by on the street in front of her house. She turned off the living room light and watched it pass.
She didnât recognize it. The car kept right on going.
Donât get completely paranoid,
she warned herself. Then she went to bed.
Miriam lay back on her bed, trying one more time to fall asleep. Instead she found herself picturing Holly. Then Jed. How Jed was there to save her.
Jed.
She missed him. Since his temper had started taking over, Miriam hadnât confided in him the way she used to.
Ruth was her best friend now. But Miriam wanted to talk to Jed. She needed to tell him what was happening.
She hadnât seen him since last nightâthe most horrible night of her lifeâin the gym. He had called twice during the day to see how she was doing. He was sweet and caringâacting once again like the old Jed.
Should she call him now? It wasnât too late. She hesitated. Could she trust him to be the caring guy he used to be? Not to fly off the handle?
She picked up the phone.
He answered on the first ring.
âJed?â
âMiriam? Are you okay?â
âNo,â she whispered. She felt the tears coming. All it took was hearing his voice. âI miss you.â
âIâll be right over,â Jed answered quickly.
Miriam tried to reply, but he had hung up.
He was coming.
âHurry,â she whispered into the dead receiver.
Ten minutes later Jedâs Civic screeched to a stop in front of the Marylesesâ house. Miriam had dressed quickly. Now she sat hunched on the porch steps, the cold ripping through her. She liked the cold. It reminded her that she was alive.
Jed smiled warmly as he came up the sidewalk, tall and handsome in his Shadyside varsity jacket, like a prince right out of her dreams. Fresh tears filled her eyes even though sheâd promised herself she was through crying.
âJed,â she croaked.
She ran to him, and he took her into his strong arms. She wiped her face against his coat. âIâm sorry,â she sniffed, taking a deep gulp of cold air. âI didnât call you over here to watch me cry. How was practice?â
âForget practice,â he replied. He guided her to the porch steps, and they sat down. âThatâs not why you called me.â
âI know.â Miriam took a deep, calming breath. âItâs Holly.â
Jed nodded, but he didnât meet her eyes. âIâm sorry, Miriam. I donât know what to say.â He swallowed. âEveryone was talking about her murder at school today. No one could talk about anything else.â
Miriam sighed and leaned against Jed.
âGary is a total mess. And now everyone is turning Holly into some kind of saint. I just want to forget about the whole thing. But I canât,â
Miriam studied him closely. What did he mean by that last comment? Holding her breath, she waited, hoping her silence would force him to explain.
It didnât.
âI never thanked you for being there for me last night,â she murmured, holding on to his arm.
Jed flashed her a quick smile, but he still didnât meet her gaze. Instead, he stared into the darkness, his jaw muscles clenching.
Miriam opened her mouth, about to tell him everythingâabout Mei and Noah, the police, the bloody notebook, the scrawled threat.
But his expression made her keep quiet. Sheâd seen that look in his eyes before. Last Saturday, after he came out of the locker room.
A murderous look.
How could she tell him about Mei and Noah? Heâd go berserk.
Heâd do something violent. She knew it.
Frowning, Miriam tried to think what had set him off this time. She couldnât stand it any longer.
âAre you all right, Jed?â she